Kamera

Aughts Philly was long on glamour, indeed. Was the city glamour market necessarily cornered for that time period? Not from what I saw. Part of the attraction of Chicago in the Aughts was that you could see from a distance, right there online, all kinds of glamour bleeding out in different directions. So many presses, journals, reading series, so much dynamism, and the online presence was, indeed, immense. Once I got a taste of Aughts Chicago, I went slightly crazy with it. First, I was going to be there, then I was there. The second of four visits, in the summer of 2007, when I was still hitched to Mary H, was well documented. Mary H and Abby, as they had been in the early Aughts, had glamour-puss rivals in Simone and Kristy, as is seen here. The fact that Simone and Kristy were also powerful heads-of-state made it so that I could not not feel, that second visit, that I had securely arrived, even as I had done Myopic the first visit, met other heads-of-state. What do Philadelphia and Chicago have in common? They both happen to be big, real cities. That's a deceptively simple thing to say, but seasoned city-watchers will know what I mean. Through Wilco, Chi-Town also had an Aughts rock record of note, which Philly did not. I like to hear Yankee Hotel Foxtrot as Tweedy & Co's answer to Third/Sister Lovers. Decomposition and decay. Even as a walk down North Milwaukee Avenue in Wicker Park does something so Main Street Manayunk, and Bucktown does something so Roxborough, that people watching closely, about Philly-Chi-Town, would not be surprised that something had to give, and it did. Against decay.

More Than A Woman

So, the Bee Gees aren't supposed to be creepy, right? Yet, I've always heard & seen both Saturday Night Fever and the adjacent soundtrack as creepy. The songs are written ass-backwards, with all those loopy strings on them. Mid-Aughts Philly was also written ass-backwards, so to speak. Plenty of loopy strings, too. The sense that when Hannah Miller showed up, so many antes got upped among us, that we might as well all been hanging out, so to speak, and hanging loose, on the Verrazano Bridge. This, I documented in '24 on PennSound. Hannah Miller's Lady Godiva-ish sense of drama, and intensity, made everything around here pick up a macabre tinge. It was all life and death. That's why the political types she often ran with were, I felt, an odd choice for her. They affirmed her need for relevance, but denied the primordial sense that she needed to be dramatically backlit for intrigue and romance. The Saturday Night Fever level of the mid-Aughts was about fooling around on the Eternity version of the Verrazano Bridge. That's where Hannah and I did our dance. Within the sphere of danger. Also like Lorca's duende. And Hannah carried so much gut-level danger with her that everything she did and said could make your own guts drop. More than a woman to me, indeed. Even if it all had to happen hit-and-run style. The opposite, I would think, of the political. 

Drown

As may be a pressing question for interested parties: does State College bear out its existence from the heart of Pennsyltucky? Even more important: is Jen a Pennsyltucky Princess? The answer is no and yes. State College, like Philadelphia itself, subsists surrounded on all sides by Pennsyltucky territories. But the influx, in the small college town, of students and faculty from Philadelphia, New York, and elsewhere renders the place cosmopolitan enough not to fall prey to Pennsyltucky syndromes. Where Jen was from, Liverpool, in the Harrisburg 'burbs, really is el primo Pennsyltucky real estate. Which means that, between being a city suburbs kid and being high as a kite on crack, I was destined for a big culture shock when I crashed there in '96. I felt strongly at the time: I could either channel Johnny Cash or Arthur Rimbaud. I chose Rimbaud. Back, also, to the Nineties. The cultural Nineties in America have a long and short version for me. In the compressed narrative form: the Nineties let popular culture get much more real than it usually does. This, I watched from State College. But The Pumpkins were a Zeitgeist band about the issue of real musical reality impinging on corporate third-world-ism and death-emphasis. With a soundtrack like The Pumpkins, it was easy to get transcendental. And ride the Nineties roller-coaster and appreciate it for all it was worth. 

Obscured

Springtime always makes me think of State College. Worth saying that, where writing is concerned, my years in State College were my apprentice years. Seriously creative people know— to get to the point where you can create what you want to create, years have to be ploughed through of churning out garbage. From 1994 until the spring, specifically, of 1998, I did, in fact, churn out my fair share of garbage in State College. I witnessed the Alternative Revolution tempest at the same time, from State College. The Pumpkins were, also in fact, demi-gods in State College. They were everywhere. Even the football guys. And when To Happy Valley appeared on PennSound in 2024, it got lost in the shuffle a little bit. It shouldn't have, because, in the spring of 1998, I had the most profound creative breakthrough I ever had, at least until Apparition Poems. Over a succession of days in April, I found myself using language to pierce through reality-holes in a way I never had before. The right forms appeared at the right times. My last increment of time in State College, April to Novemeber 1998, was thus, by far the happiest. I passed my own self-imposed Comp Exams. And this is a Pumpkins tune I heard at a party in someone's flat in May, that sent me into a paroxysm of ecstasy. Earth magic and rock magic together. The spring that arrives, and never really leaves. 

Jeepster

When Blazevox re-released the e-book Beams in 2025, I had no recourse but to revisit the fall of 2007, when the e-book initially appeared. I had just broken up with Mary H, again. Temple was Temple. At the Last Drop, Annie Daley, who appears as Dana Blasconi in Letters to Dead Masters, was documenting a bunch of heavy situations in a heavy-handed fashion. Thus, we had not only Electric Warrior, as is seen here, but Sabbath Bloody Sabbath and In the Court of the Crimson King. Records were never spun lightly at the Last Drop. You might or might not know the purpose, at any given time, but the not-casual approach to hipster-ism was their stock in trade. The moodiness, kinkiness, and sexiness of the T. Rex formed, as of the fall of 2007, a nice power block against the ogre stuff. Did the crowd notice I suddenly had books out? Some of them did. But the situation, me against an array of people in books, all in a line, was a congested one. It was a time when I relied on Chicago to really get my kicks, and feel like I was breaking new ground. The early and mid-Aughts were the really magical Philadelphia years. Even as the Last Drop remained a solid anchor-place, a place that mattered. 

Miss You

The reason I had for having to hear Some Girls, and "Miss You," interminably in the mid-Aughts, is a typical one. McGlinchey's was a bar, on 15th Street between Locust and Spruce in Center City, that served as a night-by-night base of operations for the Philly Free School then. McGlinchey's in the mid-Aughts had two flagship albums filling up the nightly music roster— Some Girls and London Calling— so The Clash and The Stones were an imperious presence there. What I say about Mary Evelyn Harju in Buffalo 8 is the truth— for personal reasons, she wanted to be absolutely still, absolutely quiet in East Falls then. But what that meant in practice for me, is that with all the riotous drunkenness, there was still a quiet space in me somewhere that was lonesome for the sense of solid connectedness I'd had with her. Hannah was another tornado, but with the juggernaut her life was, no real space remained that I could see to bond with her in a marriage-like way, as I had done with Mary H. Abby similar, and the rest. I missed Mary. So that the deep-in-your-cups version of hearing The Stones, who I'd seen on their Steel Wheels tour as a kid, was the dominant version here, as the long, long drunken nights of the mid-Aughts in Philly played themselves out.   

Peg

Peg, in this song, is, or appears to be an aspiring actress, Jade, from Equations, as is seen here in Scud, is an established actress. However, in presenting the two of them, however much I might value Scud, or Equations, I myself am acting, and with an ulterior motive. You see, the drama in the mid-Aughts was around Syd, but it was also around these guys. Nights of drama, in which, phone-call by phone-call, e-mail by e-mail, Mike Land and  I planned our next move, always with Steely Dan being spun on the side. Not to mention taking the Dan stuff to Henniker and making it resonate with Henniker Heat. So, with Syd first on the list, the second thing to be spun at the Highwire was Steely Dan. The real-life Jade to emerge in the mid-Aughts was like to tangent to the Jade in the book. "Didn't mean to get scarlet on your hands, son." There it was— the entire period of wanton mid-Aughts excess in Philadelphia was shaken loose with a sense that all that session-musician slickness, artfully obfuscating all that intense warpage, put us on the surface the right way. Then, all the quicksand beneath us could stay manageable for a while. And back to Peg, and the sense that Syd with a Donald Fagen chaser might seem like an odd bet, but everything in Aughts Philly was an odd bet, wasn't it?